His first Love

As usual he waited till her bus came, saw her, felt happy. But something else is tickling him today. He felt like talking to her, get himself introduced to her. He thought how it can be possible. He don't want to remain unnoticed, someway or the other he has to be noticed by her. As he always do, approached her home, messed around and then went to the temple nearby. He had small hope that she would be coming there, but he never expected his hopes to come true. Just thought of visiting god.

God is Great. He didn't ever pray for that to happen. But it happened. She came to the temple, along with someone, he don't know who it is. He guessed the person along with her to be he mother that would more apt in fact. He felt like some whirl inside his stomach, a strange feeling he never experienced, he just wanted to jump, punch the air to express his joy, but controlled himself. His wish came true wanted to thank God for it. Kept praising the God.

This opportunity should be used, he should get introduced himself to her, but how???!!!! He kept watching her all along the temple, in that way he also found her mother along with her, acting friendly, he liked it. He is just waiting to strike the rod. He wanted to talk to her.

He kept brooding on what happens if he talk, what happens if her mother watches him talking to her. He decided not to care all these things, "whatever might happen let it happen, I should talk to her", he finally dared.

He called her and asked if she belongs the same college which he does.( He know she does but he just interpreted it as if he saw her only or twice). She turned back and answered, "Yes". He saw directly into her eyes for the first time. He appreciated himself for his selection. She indeed talked more than what he expected, surprised with that he asked her name(as if he don't know) and she asked his name(wished if even she know his name earlier). Then her mother interrupted them asking some logical doubts for which he answered quite cleverly, he thinks. Finally she had to say bye. He gladly said bye with loads of joy at heart. His bye meant to meet again.

A proud feeling in him made him feel like punching the air again, running all the way madly. Tightening his fist he sat down there itself watching her leaving the temple, when she turned back to look at him. This did not control him, he was about to howl when his senses worked to control himself. This intro he made, he thought, would lay a very good relation with her, but he never knew what happens when he goes to talk to her, the next time...........

Knowing my Life

Things can be learnt well only by experiencing them. This is what I learnt from my experiences. Living a life does make it complete only when you keep knowing yourself as you step into every new day or a new moment to be precise. Every new step you lay down explores a very new, perhaps interesting, fact in it.

My life was always a cool one, a secure childhood, typically planned by my dearest dad such that till now I never had any objection to go my way. But I now see people, mostly elders, warning me I am not going the right way, they ask me to be careful, work hard. I wondered why are they objecting me why not all these 20 years??!!! When I realised that they liked my way as long as I am in their way. But when I started to divert trying the ways other way round, they did not like it. In fact they never wanted to me take risks, just want me follow the way paved by them. But I would never like taking the road already laid. I would rather like to prefer the unbeaten paths.

It has taken 20 solid years for me to learn that i don't really want to put my brain head burried in the bloody academic subject books. I went back thinking how did I do the things all these years which I don't desire to do now. Finally I got the answer, I was just carried away by surroundings, it was as simple as that. When I saw everyone running behind books, I was influenced to do so. Now things surrounding me tell me that, there is a lot other than studies, studies mean studies, but I am not against learning. Studies framed by the system don't really help a student learn things. Instead they turn the human ignorant. I would rather like learning to be in a playful manner(especially in childhood) where learning or may be studying would be enjoyed.

Whatever happened always taught me something rather than nothing. I now started thinking about my places of interest. I decided to clear all my obstacles which stopped me thinking all these days, clearing literally mean settling them to good ending. I don't really want to lose my joys, fun but rather add some struggles, hardworks which would keep these joy along with me all my life. Well what happens next is what I experience and what i learn from that. Let's hope a very good lesson to learn.

Perhaps I may be the last one in my generation to get into anything ,including creating a blog. So better late than never, I finally created a blog for myself. Now, what to do with this blog. I would hardly have anything important with me to share with.